00:00:54 Veronica Jensen: Good morning! Just off camera for a bit while making a warm drink :) 00:01:17 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Good morning! So good to see you all! (and a special shoutout to Suzanne who is here in the middle of the night ;)) 00:10:34 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): So happy to be here! 00:21:01 Veronica Jensen: I've been jamming on eidetics lately, so excited to learn this retreat is rooted in a version of that! 00:24:03 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): o What have been the biggest heartaches or frustration? o What patterns have you gotten stuck in with those heartaches and frustrations? 00:25:48 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): o What have been the biggest heartaches or frustration? o What patterns have you gotten stuck in with those heartaches and frustrations? 00:26:18 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): o What has been the learning? 00:27:02 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): Gregg: this was the first question: o What are some of the key moments in your life (big or small can be key) since the beginning we last met 00:28:23 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): o What does “Retrieving and Reclaiming the Parts we have lost” mean to you? 00:30:14 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): o What are you starting to sense you are here to receive over these two days? 00:32:16 Inbal Sansani: And me! 00:32:57 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "And me!" with ❤️ 00:41:56 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): For the long winded among us... 00:42:04 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): (points at self...) 00:49:32 Vlada Tomova: <3 Melody this really hit me! shared .. pretty much everything 00:52:37 Inbal Sansani: I love this, Michelle! YES! 00:54:01 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: Reacted to "I love this, Michell..." with ❤️ 00:54:59 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): So many pieces of your shares are resonating… wow! 00:55:14 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "So many pieces of yo..." with 👍🏼 00:55:22 Vlada Tomova: Replying to "So many pieces of yo..." Yes .. same here! 00:55:28 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "So many pieces of yo..." with 👍🏼 00:55:39 Jennifer Kittredge: Replying to "So many pieces of yo..." Same! 00:55:50 Jessica: Replying to "So many pieces of yo..." Me too! 😄 00:56:18 Suzanne Culberg: Reacted to "So many pieces of yo..." with ❤️ 00:56:32 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "So many pieces of yo..." with 👍🏼 01:02:20 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Feels like there is SO much re-evaluation of all things relationship and life and self-care… I didn’t speak this one, but wow, it’s been up for me as well. Thank you all for sharing… 01:02:37 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "Feels like there is ..." with 🤗 01:02:42 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "Feels like there is ..." with ❤️ 01:02:47 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "Feels like there is ..." with 🤗 01:05:07 Tina Dowdy: Reacted to "Feels like there is ..." with ❤️ 01:08:50 Vlada Tomova: I can resonate with you, Gregg, esp on the procrastination part 01:09:08 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "I can resonate with ..." with ❤️ 01:09:18 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "Feels like there is ..." with ❤️ 01:11:13 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "I can resonate with ..." with ❤️ 01:14:44 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Oh, the college and high school (theatre) dreams… 01:15:26 Veronica Jensen: Replying to "Oh, the college and ..." So many 😅 01:15:40 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "So many 😅" with 🧡 01:16:11 Jessica: brb 01:16:32 Gregg Berman: One thing i didn’t say which feels valuable to presence is the retrieving and reclaiming for me is about reclaiming and developing a different relationship to the victim in me and the part that enjoys being a victim so the world will rescue me. I’ve had so much shame and disdain for that part and trying to develop a different relationship with it. Not abandon it or push it away and love on that part. Connect with that part and care for that part. 01:17:21 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "One thing i didn’t s..." with ❤️ 01:17:51 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "One thing i didn’t s..." with ❤️ 01:17:53 Suzanne Culberg: Reacted to "One thing i didn’t s..." with ❤️ 01:18:03 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: Reacted to "One thing i didn’t s..." with ❤️ 01:30:29 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "One thing i didn’t s..." with ❤️ 01:33:22 Vlada Tomova: creative 01:33:26 Deva Munay: mystical 01:33:26 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): loving, victim, clown, artistic 01:33:30 Jessica: Scared child 01:33:31 Jessica: bossy 01:33:32 Suzanne Culberg: impulsive 01:33:43 Tina Dowdy: fun, nerdy, intuitive 01:33:43 Vlada Tomova: detached 01:33:49 Jessica: Goal-oriented 01:33:51 Wendy: playful 01:35:41 Vlada Tomova: Joanna, can you put the description in the chat 01:35:45 Suzanne Culberg: cry 01:35:46 Inbal Sansani: To scream 01:35:51 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): to hide, to shout, to hug, to protect 01:35:57 Suzanne Culberg: smash something 01:35:57 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): a sudden strong and urge or desire to act). 01:36:00 Inbal Sansani: To tell off 01:36:03 Jessica: to cut everyone out of your life 01:36:10 Kim Davies: To drive into the median! 01:36:13 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: To move your body 01:36:21 Inbal Sansani: To shake your hips 01:36:24 Jessica: To run away and go on vacation for a month 01:36:33 Inbal Sansani: To leave the US 01:36:36 Jessica: to take time alone 01:36:52 Jessica: (Hah! Inbal… I love that one) 01:36:59 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "(Hah! Inbal… I love ..." with 😂 01:37:03 Veronica Jensen: that's a big one for me right now, Inbal lol 01:37:05 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Yes, Inbal, have had that one many times lol 01:37:11 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: Reacted to "(Hah! Inbal… I love ..." with 😂 01:37:22 Jennifer Kittredge: Yes Inbal! I feel that so deeply right now. 01:37:48 Tina Dowdy: lol Inbal. I have thought about leaving the US 01:38:02 Lisa Farr: is it the same as instinct? 01:38:46 Kim Davies: Do we all have the same parts? 01:40:12 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): it feels like the impulse is kind of like an expression of our animal body (that often gets repressed) 01:40:34 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "it feels like the im..." with 💯 01:43:21 Inbal Sansani: I missed the last point: We spend a tremendous amount of psychic energy . . . [Doing what?] 01:43:36 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Replying to " ..." looking for the parts we’ve lost 01:43:56 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "looking for the part..." with 🙏🏼 01:46:06 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): 1 week divorce worked, Jessica ;) 01:46:08 Veronica Jensen: Definitely relate to that Jessica :) 01:46:26 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "1 week divorce worke..." with 😅 01:46:52 Vlada Tomova: Replying to "1 week divorce worke..." Love this concept!! 😊 01:47:41 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "Definitely relate to..." with 👍🏼 01:47:49 Vlada Tomova: Replying to "Definitely relate to..." ditto 01:49:00 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her):  What are some of your more dominant parts? Parts you have full or pretty full access to that you really use to your advantage? 01:49:18 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): My organizer, strategic thinker, teacher, healing practitioner, coach, mother, loving human, activist 01:49:23 Jessica: The productive get-things-done part, the connected empathetic part 01:49:31 Monique: My inner SuperWoman! 01:49:33 Tina Dowdy: deep listening, caring too much to a fault 01:49:42 Gregg Berman: compassionate and self compassionate 01:49:47 Deva Munay: Care, compassion, kindness, softness. Gentle. Shy, but bright 01:50:24 Gregg Berman: Kelly and Jessica, can you loan me some of those parts! 😆 01:50:29 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "Kelly and Jessica, c..." with ❤️ 01:50:59 Kim Davies: Empowering 01:51:06 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "Kelly and Jessica, c..." with 😄 01:51:11 Jessica: It feels comfortable, familiar 01:51:14 Tina Dowdy: same - empowering 01:51:17 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: Freeing, fulfilling, stressful 01:51:27 Inbal Sansani: Confident, clear, safe 01:51:32 Veronica Jensen: sometimes not even noticeable, because they're natural 01:51:32 Jennifer Kittredge: Aligned 01:51:36 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: creative 01:51:41 Lisa Farr: natural, normal, integrated 01:52:20 Jessica: Impulse to move, dance, exercise 01:53:00 Inbal Sansani: Collaborate, protect, numb 01:53:09 Tina Dowdy: impulse to protect my dog and family , very affectionate 01:53:13 Jessica: impulse to take action when there’s a problem I identify 01:53:34 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Totally like that with my kid (and kids and others I care about). Affectionate, loving, being of service, taking care of people, soothing. Taking action around things that i care about - social justice, other people’s needs, my work plans, etc. 01:53:57 Tina Dowdy: Reacted to "Totally like that wi..." with ❤️ 01:54:00 Jessica: Impulse to spend time with my kids 01:54:10 Gregg Berman: to spend time in nature 01:54:26 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): delicious! 01:54:42 Gregg Berman: resourcing, nourishing 01:54:58 Jessica: energizing 01:54:59 Tina Dowdy: it feels like im aligned with my values 01:55:30 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her):  How could you lean into these parts and impulses even more? What would be possible for you if you did? 01:56:20 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): My heart might burst. Or I might scare people away. There’s a lot of love impulse that drives me forward. Sometimes it’s a little much… I feel I have to hold it back at times. 01:56:39 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "My heart might burst..." with 💯 01:57:24 Vlada Tomova: Suzanne - spot on for me! 01:57:56 Inbal Sansani: At a basic level, I would have more oxytocin! I am constantly holding back the impulse the kiss & hug the niblings. <3 Because consent, bodily autonomy, etc. 01:58:05 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "At a basic level, I ..." with 🧡 01:58:12 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Replying to "At a basic level, I ..." I SO get it, Inbal!! 01:58:29 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "At a basic level, I ..." with 🧡 01:58:36 Inbal Sansani: Replying to "At a basic level, I ..." It's so hard, lol. 01:59:14 Vlada Tomova: WOW .. I might need to reclaim being a birch myself 😅😇 01:59:42 Vlada Tomova: BITCH .. can’t even spell it 😂 01:59:55 Suzanne Culberg: Reacted to "BITCH .. can’t even ..." with 😂 02:00:02 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "BITCH .. can’t even ..." with 😂 02:00:05 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: Reacted to "BITCH .. can’t even ..." with 😂 02:00:41 Gregg Berman: Vlada, i love the misspelling. I think there is value in reclaiming both your bitch and your birch. 🥰 02:00:52 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "Vlada, i love the mi..." with 😄 02:01:24 Vlada Tomova: Kelly <3 I feel that as well in the amount of love and reciprocation! 02:01:29 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "Kelly <3 I feel that..." with ❤️ 02:01:45 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "Vlada, i love the mi..." with 😄 02:02:04 Vlada Tomova: Replying to "Vlada, i love the mi..." Great feedback, thank you 02:02:16 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "BITCH .. can’t even ..." with 😂 02:02:20 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "Vlada, i love the mi..." with 😄 02:02:26 Vlada Tomova: Replying to "Vlada, i love the mi..." Not sure how to reclaim my birch though 😄 02:02:36 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "Vlada, i love the mi..." with 🥰 02:02:42 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "Great feedback, than..." with 🥰 02:04:11 Gregg Berman: Replying to "Vlada, i love the mi..." I’m making this up but, allow for stillness, feel the sun on your skin, notice the earth beneath you, care for and receive care from the beings around you. 02:04:29 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "I’m making this up b..." with ❤️ 02:04:34 Gregg Berman: Replying to "Vlada, i love the mi..." What might it mean for you? 02:05:52 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her):  If you were to take a guess, what parts and impulses got buried under history (fully or partially) 02:08:39 Vlada Tomova: Please repeat Joanna 02:10:10 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her):  What are some of the historical moments you can recall when a part of you or impulse got buried? 02:11:59 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her):  How was keeping it buried a form of self-compassion or self-protection? 02:13:01 Vlada Tomova: Please repeat Joanna 02:13:27 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her):  What would be different for you now if you had access to these parts and impulses? 02:29:02 Tina Dowdy: yes - felt real heavy 02:30:38 Tina Dowdy: yes - hearing others shares made it feel less lonely 02:30:51 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "yes - hearing others..." with ❤️ 02:31:09 Jessica: Reacted to "yes - hearing others..." with 👍 02:33:03 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "I’m making this up b..." with ❤️ 02:33:38 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "What might it mean f..." with 🤍 02:34:11 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "yes - hearing others..." with ❤️ 02:35:14 Veronica Jensen: feeling that too, Vlada ❤️ 02:35:50 Gregg Berman: Definitely feeling that Vlada. 02:38:00 Vlada Tomova: Replying to "Vlada, i love the mi..." Thank you 🙂 and I will free write on the meaning of birch to me 02:38:37 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "Thank you 🙂 and I w..." with 🥰 02:38:54 Jessica: Reacted to "Thank you 🙂 and I w..." with 😃 02:40:28 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "feeling that too, Vl..." with ❤️ 02:40:35 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "Definitely feeling t..." with ❤️ 02:44:30 Lisa Farr: Yes - 95% Dr Bruce Lipton has very interesting work onthhis 02:45:46 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): . “It is the re-creation or reconstruction of past experiences by the synchronous firing of neurons that were involved in the original experience”…. 02:46:12 Gregg Berman: Replying to "Vlada, i love the mi..." The birch’s connection to both fire and fire starting of all kinds, signals the birch tree’s tie to illumination, insight, and bringing light back into dark places. That birch is also associated with the spring and new beginnings in the traditoinal celtic lore further strengthen this connection. quoted from https://thedruidsgarden.com/2018/12/09/sacred-tree-profile-birchs-medicine-magic-mythology-and-meaning/ 02:48:25 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "The birch’s connecti..." with 🤍 02:49:04 Vlada Tomova: Replying to "Vlada, i love the mi..." @Gregg Berman thank you so much! I’ve copied this to process after retreat 02:49:06 Inbal Sansani: It's amazing. 02:49:14 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: We can reframe our response to the original experience 02:50:14 Vlada Tomova: I am SO excited about this as well! I know that it is a process .. I am being impatient with it 😄 02:50:21 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "I am SO excited abou..." with 🧡 02:50:46 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Love that, Gregg. 02:50:55 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "I am SO excited abou..." with 🧡 02:51:31 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "We can reframe our r..." with ❤️ 02:51:37 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "Love that, Gregg." with 🥰 02:51:49 Wendy: Replying to "Love that, Gregg." Yes, love the reframe, Gregg! 02:51:50 Jessica: Deva - you arriving upside down seems like a visual representation of our ability to rewrite pathways in a new way! 02:51:57 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Deva - my kiddo turned my zoom upside down during the pandemic and I was preparing to present and couldn’t figure out how to get right side up until the child came to fix it! 😂 02:52:19 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "Deva - my kiddo turn..." with 🤪 02:52:24 Deva Munay: Replying to "Deva - my kiddo turn..." I need your child! 02:52:31 Deva Munay: Reacted to "Deva - you arriving ..." with 🌟 02:52:37 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "Deva - my kiddo turn..." with 🤪 02:52:40 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "Deva - you arriving ..." with 🌟 02:52:44 Veronica Jensen: Reacted to "Deva - you arriving ..." with 🌟 02:52:54 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Replying to "Deva - my kiddo turn..." I’m trying to channel the child right now to figure it out for you 🙂 - give me a few! I’m playing in the backend 02:53:47 Jessica: Replying to "Deva - my kiddo turn..." There’s a rotate button under settings?? 02:53:53 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "Deva - you arriving ..." with 😆 02:54:03 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "Yes, love the refram..." with ❤️ 02:54:08 Jessica: Replying to "Deva - my kiddo turn..." (Little arrow to the right of STOP VIDEO) 02:54:54 Michelle Ritter-Taylor: I have to jump off for another meeting, I’ll be back after the long break. 03:00:25 Veronica Jensen: this even comes up with me & my massage therapist -- she reminds me of the importance of not having a thought/emotion of "go away!" when a pain or stuck place comes up to get worked through, because it's harder to actually heal that way. switching to a mindset of "thank you, it's ok to let go now" makes it easier to unwind and work through adhesions. 03:00:43 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "this even comes up w..." with ❤️ 03:00:52 Teresa Lea: Reacted to "this even comes up w..." with ❤️ 03:01:07 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "this even comes up w..." with ❤️ 03:02:16 Gregg Berman: Replying to "this even comes up w..." for sure, both mentally, physically and energetically this is true. Definitely what i’ve been working with in terms of my victim. 03:02:41 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): so powerful… 04:12:32 Joanna Lindenbaum (she/her): https://advanceddepth2022-2023.s3.amazonaws.com/Worksheet_%2BChoose%2BYour%2BOwn%2BJourney%2BVisualization%2BOutline.pdf 04:12:44 Vlada Tomova: my goodness.. I almost burst into tears with the story 04:13:21 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "my goodness.. I almo..." with 🧡 04:23:06 Deva Munay: What if they are stuck on a big T and feel abandoned if you don’t want to process it with them? 04:25:59 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): @Deva Munay Sometimes I find it helpful (in using other techniques) to let clients know we don’t want to flood their system - we want it to be an accessible piece to work with, that’s manageable to their nervous system. Another way of saying it... 04:26:22 Deva Munay: Reacted to "@Deva Munay Sometime..." with ❤️ 04:28:03 Veronica Jensen: feeling called out 😂 04:28:07 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): add 😂 04:32:27 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "@Deva Munay Sometime..." with ❤️ 04:58:29 Inbal Sansani: So powerful & beautiful! Thank you, Kelly. 04:59:19 Michelle Cohen: Thank you Kelly so powerful 05:00:14 Jennifer Kittredge: Amazing. Thank you Kelly! 05:00:29 Wendy: Reacted to "So powerful & beauti..." with 👍 05:05:46 Jessica: YEs - thank you!! 05:06:00 Veronica Jensen: lovely Kelly, thank you <3 05:09:31 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Love that idea, Monique. 05:10:29 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "lovely Kelly, thank ..." with 🧡 05:10:33 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "YEs - thank you!!" with 🧡 05:10:35 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "Amazing. Thank you K..." with 🧡 05:10:39 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "Thank you Kelly so p..." with 🧡 05:10:43 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "So powerful & beauti..." with 🧡 05:12:21 Monique: Reacted to "Love that idea, Moni..." with 😘 05:13:46 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Can I make a comment on the slowing it down, Joanna? 05:14:20 Inbal Sansani: I can also see myself wanting to rush through something as a way of not fully feeling into it. 05:16:36 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Love that, Melody! 05:16:37 Kim Davies: Melody- what a beautiful observation! 05:16:44 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "Melody- what a beaut..." with 😍 05:16:46 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "Melody- what a beaut..." with ❤️ 05:16:52 Monique: Reacted to "Melody- what a beaut..." with ❤️ 05:28:47 Vlada Tomova: Reacted to "I can also see mysel..." with 🤍 05:31:06 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Reacted to "I can also see mysel..." with 🧡 05:34:47 Veronica Jensen: Joanna - you set the expectation in the beginning w/ Kelly that "if I notice you being smarty pants I’m going to lovingly remind you not to." This didn't seem to really happen in the demo. What are flags you look for that tell you the person is being in their smarty pants self during this process? 05:54:57 Inbal Sansani: Resistance! ;) 05:55:47 Inbal Sansani: I have the same challenge / situation, Teresa. 05:56:33 Veronica Jensen: i do too. it's often hard for me to pull something specific from that long term memory into working memory 05:56:38 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "i do too. it's often..." with 💯 05:59:16 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Love that, Gregg. One of my shamanic teachers used to say, tell your brain that all you’re doing is using the imagination. Feel free to make it up! 06:00:25 Gregg Berman: Reacted to "Love that, Gregg. On..." with 🙏🏼 06:45:24 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): It was really amazing to witness Inbal (practitioner) and Michelle (client), and it feels like there’s so much there, so many layers. 06:45:53 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "It was really amazin..." with 🙏🏼 06:55:32 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): So grateful for practice and debriefing space. It makes it so real. And I give thanks for the challenges because it’s so much more helpful to have challenges here where we can discuss in collective than off on our own! 07:01:52 Kelly Lubeck (she/her): Good dreamtime wishes for tonight, ya’ll! ;) 07:02:00 Inbal Sansani: Reacted to "Good dreamtime wishe..." with 😍 07:02:10 Vlada Tomova: Thank you SO much Joanna and everyone <3